Barbie vs. Boosey (My PERSONAL shoe wishlist of Dec. 2011)

A series: Love letters to Xeuryia; Letter One

You, Xeuryia, are sacred.
Much like the way your wet hair grazes your lower back when you step out of the shower, much like the chills that manifest on your abdomen as his lips graze your neck.

You, Xeuryia, are quirky.
Much like the way you enjoy eating Ramen noodles with chopsticks because it makes you feel cultured.

the name is xeuryia.

Carita- luna, moonlit beauty
Euphraxia- to delight the heart and mind
Xylia-of the forest
Tryphosa- the delicate
Disir - spirits who attach themselves to a particular place.

carita euphraxia xylia tryphosa disir


phosacarxylia



The delicate moonlit beauty of the forest


xeuryia

of the forest to delight the heart and mind

To delight the heart and mind of the delicate forest

I want

a boy who rewards himself with manly bath time. You know, a bath and beer and a wooden "rubber ducky" or something.

Flowers in a jar we picked out in my yard,
Face in my pillow, fevered with fears that offend you,
of course you'll come back, of course you won't leave like this,
of course you'll come back and give my forehead a kiss,
of course you'll touch my salty cheek,
of course you'll return to me.

Bipolar cat that sat in my lap during our night picnic,
Candy bars you bought me in my refrigerator and bodies moving rhythmic,
I hope you remember sitting in coffee shops and romantic evenings,
I hope you think its cute that I get chocolate on my elbows,
And I hope you like how much I love animals,
and I know you'll remember the fits but never forget flowers in a jar we picked out in my yard,
I'll never forget you'll come back and of course you'll return to me.

Three hours. Not a full work shift.

A day. Not long enough to clean my room.

Two days. Three hours.

Three days. Still not a full work week but the average number of shifts I may work.

Four days. Still not the weekend.

Five days. I have waited much longer.

Six days. Not yet a full week.

Six days and three hours. We’ll figure it out.

Three hours, September. 19 is young. 

Three hours, September, 5 years. That pains a little.

Three hours.

Homes Boney Chest

We sat in the backseat of your car, blankets immersing us in fake sanctuary; I'm home because you're there. I don't really take pleasure in scary movies, they interest me, but they depress me. We ignore the movie, we tried playing cards. I touched you beneath your undergarments; Warmth; I was home; In the back of your car; At the drive-in theater; On screen two.

What do you do when home leaves you? Put up signs with his face on it? “Money reward for return of home” You can have a weakness for the fossils- The poem, the horse you endearingly knitted for weeks, the dream catcher that whimsically suspends from my wall with my uneven décor, red walls with your writing- will these fossils haunt me or comfort me?

I want to lay my head on homes boney chest. I love you.

bottomless

I often do not become conscious of the amount of pain I feel, though nevertheless, it is dreadfully present.  I have a “gift” (one could say) for snubbing that nagging anguish- AKA: the deep cuts. I divert their attention to/ with the minor scrapes.  Later, however, in combination with the lesser scrapes, the deep cuts begin to feel bottomless.

"For the sake of goodness and love, man shall let death have no sovereignty over his thoughts." - Thomas Mann


To Govern. Supreme power or authority.

Often times religion is a cultural system relating mostly to humanity, that establishes thoughts,ideas and morals that contribute to an individuals values. Often times those "values" become a "merit" or "worth" in a society and suddenly those who do not share the same "values" lack "merit". When a cultural system (ahem, religion) becomes such a cycle it often governs (rather than influencing) many lives and choices. I believe Thomas Mann is advising us to let "goodness and love" govern our thoughts.

"An art whose medium is language will always show a high degree of critical creativeness, for speech is itself a critique of life: it names, it characterizes, it passes judgment, in that it creates."

I remember in the 8th grade, I wrote a paper titled "What Is Art?", I basically wrote a whole essay on the sum of this quote. Had I knew Thomas Mann had so much to say, I would have quoted him in that essay. I define art as "anything that is a product of creativity", here, Thomas Mann defines what role language plays in art and life. He talks about how it creates within itself "... in that it creates". - Thomas Mann

Thomas Mann- (German writer and artist):

"For the sake of goodness and love, man shall let death have no sovereignty over his thoughts."
"A great truth is a truth whose opposite is also a truth."

"A writer is somebody for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people."

"Human reason needs only to will more strongly than fate, and she is fate."

"If you are possessed by an idea, you find it expressed everywhere, you even smell it."

"Order and simplification are the first steps toward the mastery of a subject."

"People's behavior makes sense if you think about it in terms of their goals, needs, and motives."

"Solitude gives birth to the original in us, to beauty unfamiliar and perilous - to poetry. But also, it gives birth to the opposite: to the perverse, the illicit, the absurd."



"The task of a writer consists of being able to make something out of an idea."

"The writer's joy is the thought that can become emotion, the emotion that can wholly become a thought."

"War is only a cowardly escape from the problems of peace."

"We don't love qualities, we love persons; sometimes by reason of their defects as well as of their qualities."

Stop feeling guilty for wanting to laugh,

We know you think its funny.

 By: Kate Frakes and, well, myself.

Its Earth Day, SweetPea!

So I have been thinking (Everybody take cover) about consumerism, and well, damn, I am a consumerist, however, today is like redemption day. Get inspired and make some changes. So here we go, I'm going to tell you the changes I wish to see in my own lifestyle:

-Recycle "trash" more!
-Use resusable grocery bags (I do, but I need more!)
-Buy less new clothes (This one hurts a little, but hey, recycling old styles is fun)
-PLANT TREES!!! AND FLOWERS! AND FAIRY GARDENS!
-Get away from preservatives!

THE IMPORTANT PART:
Don't do these things in vain! Please, do it because of the love you have for mother earth. Don't feel that love? Go outside in the worst of conditions. Rain, snow, sleet, PLEASE. This is the most active way to learn to love the earth. Get dirty, Get cold, Get uncomfortable, Get wet (get your head out of the gutter!).
And read this: http://blog.babybearshop.com/2011/03/tree-hugger.html
It inspired me!

For some reason, this makes me feel like a indoor fairy?

I haven't been a fairy for a while now, but I'm determined.